I have to remind myself that God has a plan. It's a good plan. And by hook or crook, things will work out OK. We just don't know what OK looks like yet, or where. There are so many people cheering and praying. I am the most fortunate unlucky person ever.
So I call all 15 hospitals in QLD pretty much everyday to see if anything has changed. And make sure they don't forget me. Apparently a spot opened up at one of the hospitals. But they won't give it to me, they are pulling a P1 from somewhere else to fill it. Tearing hair out now. NNNGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!
I have also just started the CaRMS process, which is how I would return to Canada. In the Canadian system, there is no intern year. A student goes straight from the degree program to fellowship training (which is how a doctor becomes a Dermatologist, GP, Obstetrician or whatever). I've already written the first exam ($1600.00) and registered ($300.00) with the program. I will not find out anything until February/March when interviews are conducted.
It's just difficult to concentrate on my studies (Paediatrics at the moment) when there is nothing at the end. And a six figure debt that needs paying off. Oh dear. I have just drained the dregs of my student line of credit paying my final semester tuition. It may be a bumpy ride to the finish line. But we'll get there. I really hope someone calls me soon with a job.